castle walls

times like these i wish i had a mature figure to talk to.
i don't even know how to handle this.
and my little sister is looking to me to be the support.

my family is falling apart and she's stuck in the drivers seat of a plane she can't fly.

since like 2005 my dads been chasing this poisonous dream of an invention that's never going to take off.
He keeps pumping money into R&R and often he returns to Cambodia in hopes that someone will get him somewhere. His last trip was supposed to be his last trip. Then Facebook happened. He found relatives he didn't know he had.

And now, they're running him for a fool.
He's been going around my mother and talking to his "niece" and her "friends" that claim they can get the 'word" out on his product.
THERE'S NO FUCKING WORD TO GET OUT.

his project is just a hydrogen based energy converter. there is nothing that frolicking in cambodia is going to help.

my mom called him out on it. she said they're only gonna con him at the very least.

he wont listen.

she's taking my other sister and leaving to stay with her sister for a few weeks.

meanwhile my youngest sister is in the middle of senior year chaos. She's juggling 5 AP level courses and has to have at least 5 college apps and education plans mapped out by the end of the week.

but my mom isn't giving her options.Except try to talk your dad out of this and i wont leave.

thats some bullshit right there.

you already limit her, you wont let her get her license.
you won't let her get a job
you don't want her to go further than a 2 hour radius for college.

you weren't fair to me at that age, and 10 years later you aren't being fair to her.

i don't know what to do.
my hands are tied and i just don't know

Caw Caw Motherfucker!!

Oh hey, i forgot that i had a personal blog still. As always i SHOULD start writing again, but at the same time i can barely write for 2Shots. But for the sake of nostalgia and in case facebook forgets to remind me where i am currently when i forget 3 years from now.

I'm a tropical bird. A pretty tropical bird.
At the moment i still reside in Hawaii with my Sailor.
I'm not gonna lie and just say its gorgeous living out here.
But i still miss home.
Being back in San Diego this past August confirmed the fact that my roots are thoroughly so cal.
The reason im a bird is that i'm still up to my brightly colored hair and vibrant image.
which sometimes seems a bit too much for the locals to take in.

but hawaii is only temporary, 2 more years and we'll be on another coast.
hopefully something more than just a gf.
truth be told i'm still aching to be a Mrs. only this time i'm being smarter about it and not wasting 2 years of my life in the hell known as New Hampshire.

I'm sure if you like trees and rocks and shitty weather New Hampshire would be a great place to live. However i hate trees and rocks that aren't good music and i especially hate shitty weather.

but anyways, for once in my life I'm in a stable situation. I'd like to work a little more than part time because being a geek isn't cheap. but hell, i'm in no hurry. Between 2shots, Kim's Etsy and being a pseudo-housewife it keeps me plenty busy. And sane.

thank god i'm sane. still a bit crazy, but at least i'm sane

75% chance that google chrome will eat this blog entry and it will never see the light of day so assume that it was something important.

trigger happy

feeding the machine

just another day in paradise...

Please excuse my recent absence. I've been settling into my new home.
I live in Hawaii now, with my Sailor if you've missed that note.
But its actually been fairly eventful and there's quite a bit to talk about, I'll try to keep le wall of text to a minimum.
So for starters:

Movies:
In the few weeks here i've seen quite a few movies both in theaters and in blu-ray wonderfulness.

Hollywood 3D madness ( or magic depending on your cup of tea..) brought me Puss in Boots and The Immortals (all on the same night too!) Other than both of these being at the polar opposites of the spectrum they were both very eye-pleasingly awesome.

Puss was both very cute and well versed in the usual Shrek-style comedy, something for both the kids and the kids at heart.

The Immortals however... Holy Hell on a stick!! I know critics bashed it to hell but thats generally what they do anyways. The imagery was gorgeous and the violence was absolutely amazing... oh and there was a storyline somewhere. My only problem with the movie was Zeus having a porn 'stache. Besides that it was bloody, violent, contain sexual situations and tons of eye candy (both male and female), can't ask for much more.

In non 3D madness i was introduced to another magic.. The world of Harry Potter.
Amazing.. i'm an absolute new comer to this series, so while i let it sink in i'll write about it later.

Books:
My flight here was like a million and 8 hours long, sadly i'm not the kind of person who can sleep all of those million hours. So i picked up a few books/manga and charged up my 3DS and iPod and boarded the plane.. three times thank you layovers.
What I read:
Sailor Moon 1
Sailor V 1
Both are just the recent english translations of the original mangas. Sailor Moon brought me right back to my early teens when i discovered the magic of manga and anime. Sailor V annoyed the snot out of me. I was never much of a Sailor V fan. But regardless the names and characters are true to the original version as the translation kept the Japanese names and inside jokes (with notes in the back of course). I will certainly be on the look out for other volumes.

Games:
Nothing new for me as i'm kinda broke.
HOWEVER he did get Ultimate Marvel vs. Capcom 3 for the PS3.
damn. I fell in love with the opening sequence. And if i didn't already love the game, i fell right back in lust with it. In addition to new characters, most of the older characters were re-balanced and given a much larger and personalized trash talk script. For you non-arcade fighters re-balancing is just a reworking of fight stats to more accurately depict a character.
I'm still chipping away at Pokemon Black and HeartGold along with my mission to finally beat Trauma center. I'm close to beating Trauma Center, that game has been testing my patience.. LOL puns.

And thats it for now. The holidays are upon us and i've got my plate full, thank goodness i love cooking.

where the heart is..

for the first time in a long time i got a satisfying night of sleep.

i know this i should be cautious when throwing around feelings about a LTR.

but by god, i think i got it right.

i'm where i'm supposed to be.

and i'm home.